Another tough-ish day. By about 3pm I was so hungry I thought I was going to vomit. That's not normal really is it?
And then, there was a HUGE cake for a farewell afternoon tea, RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY CUBICLE SECTION! Bastards! But, I'm very pleased to say I didn't eat it!
Am very happy with myself today, but I'm thinking perhaps I need a more substantial breakfast to help ward off the hungryness in the middle of the day.
Tip of the day: Resistance is not futile. You don't need the cake.
Stay beautiful
Alys
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Pushing through the pain
So, it's day four today. Day four is generally about when I lose my temper, will power and self control when I've previously "dieted".
And today, like most other day fours, I'm tired, cranky, hungry and craving ridiculous foods. Didn't help that work was a little bit shit today either.
But, I'm so over it today. OVER IT! I want chocolate, chips, hot chips, macdonalds, ice cream, snakes. You name it. I want it.
But, also, I feel a new sort of conviction that I haven't felt before. I want to push through the pain. That's how I'm thinking of it. You know how they talk to you in gyms (not that I've been in a lot of gyms in my lifetime). Push through it, Alys. Push through it.
So, while I'm over it, I'm pleased to say that I've made it home without breaking. And now that I'm here I'm going to stay here where my "food environment" will not hurt me and where Mr Canada has promised to save me from myself. He's not going to let me go back out into the world (where I can drive thru!) and he's promised to withhold the toast (which is generally what I pig out on when there's nothing else... He asked what was wrong with toast. I said there's nothing wrong with toast, but there's a lot wrong with eight pieces of toast wolfed down in ten minutes. ... oooh... that's embarrassing. I can't believe I admitted that on the internet!)
So I'm pushing through the pain. I can do it. I believe in myself.
I believe in myself
Stay beautiful
Alys
And today, like most other day fours, I'm tired, cranky, hungry and craving ridiculous foods. Didn't help that work was a little bit shit today either.
But, I'm so over it today. OVER IT! I want chocolate, chips, hot chips, macdonalds, ice cream, snakes. You name it. I want it.
But, also, I feel a new sort of conviction that I haven't felt before. I want to push through the pain. That's how I'm thinking of it. You know how they talk to you in gyms (not that I've been in a lot of gyms in my lifetime). Push through it, Alys. Push through it.
So, while I'm over it, I'm pleased to say that I've made it home without breaking. And now that I'm here I'm going to stay here where my "food environment" will not hurt me and where Mr Canada has promised to save me from myself. He's not going to let me go back out into the world (where I can drive thru!) and he's promised to withhold the toast (which is generally what I pig out on when there's nothing else... He asked what was wrong with toast. I said there's nothing wrong with toast, but there's a lot wrong with eight pieces of toast wolfed down in ten minutes. ... oooh... that's embarrassing. I can't believe I admitted that on the internet!)
So I'm pushing through the pain. I can do it. I believe in myself.
I believe in myself
Stay beautiful
Alys
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Bad snacking... dammit...
Yep... that's what happens when there's cheese and crackers in front of me.
Pooh.
Now, moral dilemma. Do I write the cheese and crackers (and chocolate... *sigh*) into my food diary for my dietician to see? Let's see... what she doesn't know won't hurt her right?
Or does that also mean that I'm lying to myself...
Grrrr... my overanalysed childhood is so annoying sometimes.
Am going to write them into food diary and face the wrath of said dietician.
Tip of the day... food environment. Don't set yourself up for failure... like I did today...
Stay beautiful
Alys
Pooh.
Now, moral dilemma. Do I write the cheese and crackers (and chocolate... *sigh*) into my food diary for my dietician to see? Let's see... what she doesn't know won't hurt her right?
Or does that also mean that I'm lying to myself...
Grrrr... my overanalysed childhood is so annoying sometimes.
Am going to write them into food diary and face the wrath of said dietician.
Tip of the day... food environment. Don't set yourself up for failure... like I did today...
Stay beautiful
Alys
Friday, June 26, 2009
What does "hungry" actually feel like
Sounds like a pretty bloody stupid question, but, believe it or not, I'm not entirely sure that I,
a) know what hungry feels like, and
b) know when I'm full.
Don't get me wrong I know when I'm experiencing both extremes. I know when I'm absolutely stuffed - hard to get that wrong. I also know when I'm absolutely starving. But I'm told that it is possible to feel both things, but not necessarily in the extreme.
My dietician really challenged me on that. We've laid out three meals a day, but also allowed for a morning tea, an afternoon tea and a supper. I'm definitely eating my three main meals a day, but the challenge has been, am I really hungry enough to eat those in between snacks. And here's the measure she gave me.
Imagine you have a bowl of brussel sprouts in front of you (bleugh!) If you're hungry enough, you will eat the brussel sprouts, regardless of liking them or not. So. Since we know I'm getting enough food in my three meals, When it gets to snack time I have to visual the bowl of brussel sprouts. Am I hungry enough that I will eat brussel sprouts? If the answer is no, then I'm not hungry enough to eat the snack.
Again... old habits die hard!!
I love snacks. LOVE them. They come in so many shapes, and sizes and forms. I'm not going to list them. Everyone knows a snack when they see it and if I list them then I'll start thinking about them!! But, snacking, for me, is one of life's greatest luxuries. But, now, I'm forced to equate a snack with a bowl of brussel sprouts. Hmmmmmmmmm...
However, all in all, a good day today. It's a saturday so I went for a good long walk in the morning. I'm on track with my food. And, although it's a Saturday night, and I have a girls night in scheduled I also have a management plan. I'm going to said girls night in AFTER dinner. And I'm going to take my own supper. A banana, a low fat hot chocolate drink (jarrah hot chocolates are your friend and come recommended by reputable dieticians - ie mine, and Mr Canada's mother! ooooh... should have mentioned that. Mr Canada's mother is also a dietician...!) and a trail bar. Will probably be more than I need, but given the food environment I'll be in, I'm bringing better options for myself. We'll see how we go.
And, finally, my tip of the day, Burgen Fruit Loaf comes pre-approved by my dietician. Two slices for breakfast with a scrape of marg/butter and eaten slowly, is an incredibly filling breakfast... pretty tasty too!
Stay beautiful
Alys
a) know what hungry feels like, and
b) know when I'm full.
Don't get me wrong I know when I'm experiencing both extremes. I know when I'm absolutely stuffed - hard to get that wrong. I also know when I'm absolutely starving. But I'm told that it is possible to feel both things, but not necessarily in the extreme.
My dietician really challenged me on that. We've laid out three meals a day, but also allowed for a morning tea, an afternoon tea and a supper. I'm definitely eating my three main meals a day, but the challenge has been, am I really hungry enough to eat those in between snacks. And here's the measure she gave me.
Imagine you have a bowl of brussel sprouts in front of you (bleugh!) If you're hungry enough, you will eat the brussel sprouts, regardless of liking them or not. So. Since we know I'm getting enough food in my three meals, When it gets to snack time I have to visual the bowl of brussel sprouts. Am I hungry enough that I will eat brussel sprouts? If the answer is no, then I'm not hungry enough to eat the snack.
Again... old habits die hard!!
I love snacks. LOVE them. They come in so many shapes, and sizes and forms. I'm not going to list them. Everyone knows a snack when they see it and if I list them then I'll start thinking about them!! But, snacking, for me, is one of life's greatest luxuries. But, now, I'm forced to equate a snack with a bowl of brussel sprouts. Hmmmmmmmmm...
However, all in all, a good day today. It's a saturday so I went for a good long walk in the morning. I'm on track with my food. And, although it's a Saturday night, and I have a girls night in scheduled I also have a management plan. I'm going to said girls night in AFTER dinner. And I'm going to take my own supper. A banana, a low fat hot chocolate drink (jarrah hot chocolates are your friend and come recommended by reputable dieticians - ie mine, and Mr Canada's mother! ooooh... should have mentioned that. Mr Canada's mother is also a dietician...!) and a trail bar. Will probably be more than I need, but given the food environment I'll be in, I'm bringing better options for myself. We'll see how we go.
And, finally, my tip of the day, Burgen Fruit Loaf comes pre-approved by my dietician. Two slices for breakfast with a scrape of marg/butter and eaten slowly, is an incredibly filling breakfast... pretty tasty too!
Stay beautiful
Alys
Okay. Day one.
I hate to talk in terms of failure, but let's lay it out on the table.
I totally forgot that there was a farewell lunch planned at work today for a colleague. Said colleague is a good guy, and it's sort of sad that he's going. Mind you, I never had really very much to do with him. Nevertheless, I sort of felt compelled to go. Small office - wanted to put on a good show etc.
So. Off to Mecca Bah (seriously good turkish food, btw) we went, and the Office Manager promptly ordered the banquet.
I really should have stuck my hand up and said, "no, thanks. I might just order my own thing." That would have been not only the brave thing to do, but the sensible and healthy thing to do. But, again, there was a bit of peer pressure. Plus I didn't really want to stick my hand up and say, "sorry, if you don't mind, I'm trying to be healthy and I'm not sure that I want to eat a whole banquet."
So. Less than 24 hours into my new lifestyle, here I am confronted by a food situation that I'm not quite sure how to deal with.
To begin with, I only ate half of things. So when I was served a falafel, I cut it in half and left one half on my plate (actually - I passed the half over to our accounts assistant who vacuums food up!) Had as much salad as I could. Then mains started to come out. Again, I only served myself a little bit of the lamb tagine. Then the turkish pizzas arrived, and I lost my control. I had probably way too much than I should have overall.
Old habits die hard, huh?
So - what did I learn today? Stick your hand up to make a better choice for yourself (which I should have done). Try to reduce the amount you actually eat by leaving some on your plate (which I did do) and, as always, try to maintain self control (which I sort of managed)
While I'm not overly happy with the outcome and I'm not overly happy that I ended up in that "food environment", I can see that I did make some good choices in a situation where I could have done a lot worse.
On the upside, I was very VERY well behaved on the snacking front. Morning tea was a two wholewheat crackers and I didn't have afternoon tea at all.
Well done me!
Stay beautiful
Alys
I hate to talk in terms of failure, but let's lay it out on the table.
I totally forgot that there was a farewell lunch planned at work today for a colleague. Said colleague is a good guy, and it's sort of sad that he's going. Mind you, I never had really very much to do with him. Nevertheless, I sort of felt compelled to go. Small office - wanted to put on a good show etc.
So. Off to Mecca Bah (seriously good turkish food, btw) we went, and the Office Manager promptly ordered the banquet.
I really should have stuck my hand up and said, "no, thanks. I might just order my own thing." That would have been not only the brave thing to do, but the sensible and healthy thing to do. But, again, there was a bit of peer pressure. Plus I didn't really want to stick my hand up and say, "sorry, if you don't mind, I'm trying to be healthy and I'm not sure that I want to eat a whole banquet."
So. Less than 24 hours into my new lifestyle, here I am confronted by a food situation that I'm not quite sure how to deal with.
To begin with, I only ate half of things. So when I was served a falafel, I cut it in half and left one half on my plate (actually - I passed the half over to our accounts assistant who vacuums food up!) Had as much salad as I could. Then mains started to come out. Again, I only served myself a little bit of the lamb tagine. Then the turkish pizzas arrived, and I lost my control. I had probably way too much than I should have overall.
Old habits die hard, huh?
So - what did I learn today? Stick your hand up to make a better choice for yourself (which I should have done). Try to reduce the amount you actually eat by leaving some on your plate (which I did do) and, as always, try to maintain self control (which I sort of managed)
While I'm not overly happy with the outcome and I'm not overly happy that I ended up in that "food environment", I can see that I did make some good choices in a situation where I could have done a lot worse.
On the upside, I was very VERY well behaved on the snacking front. Morning tea was a two wholewheat crackers and I didn't have afternoon tea at all.
Well done me!
Stay beautiful
Alys
Thursday, June 25, 2009
It's 5:30pm on a regular Thursday afternoon. Earlier today I had my first appointment with a dietician...
So. Let's get the gory details out of the way. I'm about 150cms tall and currently weigh in at just over 104kgs. (Also - I'm going to show Mr Canada, my boyfriend, this blog. That means for the first time in our year and a half relationship he's going to know how much I weigh. Scary thought.) To be perfectly honest, my answer to the question, "what diets & lifestyle changes have you tried", is none. So I guess the big question for me right now is, how did I get to 26 like this? While I don't want to get bogged down in negative thought, perhaps it's entirely possible that I'm just fat and lazy...
Anyway, the non-diet diary is going to be my attempt to talk, rant, rationalise and cogitate on my new lifestyle changes as they take place. While Mr Canada is so incredibly supportive and lovely lovely, I'm concerned that all my ramblings might simply prove to much for him and that I might need to find an additional outlet. Plus, hopefully, eventually you, dear reader, will find me and we can share some of the journey together.
Finally, like Magda, I figure that if I make this public, there's way more impetus on me to succeed!
Stay beautiful.
Alys
So. Let's get the gory details out of the way. I'm about 150cms tall and currently weigh in at just over 104kgs. (Also - I'm going to show Mr Canada, my boyfriend, this blog. That means for the first time in our year and a half relationship he's going to know how much I weigh. Scary thought.) To be perfectly honest, my answer to the question, "what diets & lifestyle changes have you tried", is none. So I guess the big question for me right now is, how did I get to 26 like this? While I don't want to get bogged down in negative thought, perhaps it's entirely possible that I'm just fat and lazy...
Anyway, the non-diet diary is going to be my attempt to talk, rant, rationalise and cogitate on my new lifestyle changes as they take place. While Mr Canada is so incredibly supportive and lovely lovely, I'm concerned that all my ramblings might simply prove to much for him and that I might need to find an additional outlet. Plus, hopefully, eventually you, dear reader, will find me and we can share some of the journey together.
Finally, like Magda, I figure that if I make this public, there's way more impetus on me to succeed!
Stay beautiful.
Alys
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